I've picked up journaling again lately. I haven't actually done that for...I guess it's been a year now at the very least! It feels like forever.
I had forgotten what it was like.
Now that I'm doing it again, at least for a while, I talk (well, write) to that journal as if it's a close friend. I found myself complimenting it earlier tonight for its limitless patience! I mean, it "listens" to me about anything without tiring, no matter how much I ramble. And I can be completely honest without it judging me. You begin to think that you're a really open person who doesn't have much of a bad side to hide when you talk to your friends, but when you write out your thoughts truly unedited, even from yourself (which can be more difficult than it sounds), sometimes you begin to see that the bold truth is a scary thing indeed. There have been a couple of times that I surprised myself a little.
This post is meant in no way to upset any of my friends who are reading. I love having long talks with the people I'm close to and telling them almost everything, I really and truly do. Writing is not going to replace that by any means! It's there as a tool and a nice past-time, but no matter how often I compliment it, it's never going to be a real friend to me like you guys are.
I go to it whenever I have something I want to thoroughly think through, because writing out things helps me to figure it all out. It's kind of like a different form of thinking for me; if floating in my head isn't the right way to think, I write it out.
Plus, if I were to have something that I couldn't talk about for whatever reason, there's always writing. Usually, if I can't talk about something, it's because I've taken whatever I'm thinking through and worn someone out on the subject before I'm finished with it! Fortunately for me, a notebook never gets tired of my subject choices.
So, if you're a reader who feels like commenting: Have you ever tried journaling? Do you have something else that helps when you're thinking through stuff?
P.S. At first, I spent lots of time thinking to get it perfect...but lately, I have been slacking on the blog title that needs to be changed. I now hang my head in shame. I'll start tossing ideas around again and get back to you soon!